Momxiety : Children’s Development

Firstly, I know this kind of worry is within all of us Mothers and that it is kind of unfair for our children but there are times that we can’t help but worry anyway, wonder what I am talking about? Well I am talking about the development of our children, I believe that comparing their development with other children is unfair to them but I honestly can’t help but to worry at times and I know you do too, right? most specially when we see other children doing things your child cannot do yet, we worry so much that our child may have special tendencies/delayed but at the back of our mind we know and we are sure that our love for our child will never change and we would still do our very best to provide for what they needs.

Every time I am experiencing this worry, it gets a bit hard because with or without anxiety it will make you worry so bad that you want to get a re-assurance from a professional so that you can just calm down right? And so I have asked some professionals to asses my child if ever I need to refer him to early intervention specialist but luckily they are just brushing me off saying that he is completely normal and I am just a big time worrier (sigh of relief) and thankfully people around me has been very supportive and re assured me that my child is okay because every child is different and developing on his own phase. Thank God!

So, did you experience something like this? Or I am just a crazy worrier? Heh!

Tell me about it!

-Twitchy mommy

Summoners War: A short review

Summoners War : A short review

Summoners War: Sky Arena, created by South Korean game developer, Com2Us, is a mobile turn-based strategy MMO. The game was announced and released at the Electronic Entertainment Expo on June 12, 2014 for iOS and Android devices. Summoners War has performed successfully with 50 million downloads worldwide.^{( Wikipedia)}

Hi Mommies! Today I will talk about an app game Summoners War.

I Have been playing summoners war for a good two years. well okay there are times that i get fed up and delete it then download it again, because yes, i find it entertaining and challenging and so I introduced this game to my brother and my husband and now they are a better player than me and i mean it! they play SW like its their job.

 

My monsters ( I’m still a noob up to now )

Dungeon Fighting Scene ( Dragons )

Game play : The game is very addicting most specially if your in the start up part, you will have a lot of goals to reach, the excitement of summoning and having a natural 5 star summon, improving your characters so you can be able to enter the different dungeons since the higher the level of your characters and the better your summons and runes the higher level of dungeon you can summon. You can equip different runes to compliment each and every monster you can summon for you to get the best out of their abilities, there are a lot of summons you can get, the number of monsters are big so i commend the creators for their creativity in making different characters.

PVP : PVP or Arena is one of the most interesting or Highlights of the game, well if you have a good monster with great runes you can have a high ranking match with different players, you will start with 10 arena invitations and it will regenerate for a number of time and i am very excited now that you can do arena fighting LIVE. you can now fight other players monster real time. that is EXCITING!

Long term playing : I feel like the game lacks in things that long time players can get excited anymore, because of course when your playing for a long time you will also be able to achieve the goals to make your monsters strong, and there are few and limited events to enjoy, and sometimes none.

Improvements : I really hope that the creator will have an event of doubling or even give a higher chance of summon for a limited time as a special event or whatever it is to make other player catch up a little.

Verdict : 4/5

The game is really enjoyable and time consuming, I will recommend it to my friends who wants to play a game that can be a challenge to them and to those who wants to stay at home and loves to play video games, this is a good one, this game can also introduce you to other people since it has different chat channels and you can join guilds where you can have a group of people to socialize with.

Hope it helps you to find your worth while gaming app.

Cheers!

-Twitchy Mommy

 

 

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Twitchy Mommy Goes to Work!

Hi Mommies!! It’s been a while since the last time I updated my blog.

I’ve been busy this past couple of months, since I am now working. Yes! I am a working mom now! Well things are working out, and I’m fabulously getting by, hehe! But I got to say that it’s not easy, it’s not a breeze and most likely not a walk in the park, it’s challenging but that’s what gives life its spice right? The challenge!

Well, speaking of challenges, the main challenge I am having is the separation anxiety, every morning is a struggle to get out of the house without Little W noticing me walking out the door to avoid the crying and the please don’t go tantrums! And I must tell you, it is not easy! I hate seeing my child crying because he doesn’t want mummy to leave but we need to do this for us. I hope he *understands* soon. Lol so every its time to go home, I fly out of the office to get to him and the reward is? The never ending attention from him! He will never get away from this Mummy!

Secondly, the adjustment, you know I have been a stay at home mom for almost two years, dated back from my pregnancy up to Little W’s first year old birthday, so the transition was a bit hard but it is manageable. You know, the people… The Ms. Superiority Complex, the Mr. Attitudes and all those people I do not have the patience to be with,  hope that I would not go through that and stay at home to take care of your son personally but you can’t! because you need this job and you all need to survive, so you got to toughen up. Though, there are days that it is specially hard since Anxiety is having an episode and this people are trying to worsen it but girl you got to smile! Survive and repeat! for I know my Little W’s waiting for me at home and Daddy’s getting me from work.

After I get home, I still got things to do, cook dinner, take care of Little W and all and after all the chores is done it is now time to bond with my Little W and daddy, the story telling, play and cuddle time is the best part of this Mom’s day, after my child fell asleep, the feeling of happiness and pride that I survived this day is good! So now that Little W is asleep Me and Daddy will have our free time!! But not till I fall asleep after 15mins of watching our favorite Movies and series. Lol.

Well Mommies, the point of this post is me trying to share my experience and encourage you that it is alright, that is not easy to be working and to be a mom and wife at the same time but we can do it! And like I always say, you are not a bad mom! Working doesn’t make you a bad mom, you just really need to do things and help out, also there are a lot of people who are not even worth your time and making your life harder at work but you know what? They are not worth your time. If you can understand them then do, don’t drag it out longer, don’t make your world small, go out there and slay! You are a great mom!

The House Help Adventure

We are seriously in need of a baby sitter and a house help! we havent had one for the longest time! Its just really hard to juggle all the house works and taking care of a 10months old baby with just myself but its soooo hard to get a dependable one lately.

But first, let me tell you a little and really interesting stories from house helps ive had so far, first of is Ding, he works hard, he is funny and dependable, well for the first years of course, maybe its my fault why he became a spoiled house help,we treated him as a family and friend, specially myself, i trusted him as a friend but on his 3rd yr with us he just left with a lot of our valuables and a lot of debt from our neighbors, and the reason? He eloped with his boyfriend. 2nd is Bunay and her sister, we sent money to them so they will have the money to come here in manila since they are from the province but when they get here, all they do is ask for a permission to have a day off almost thrice a week and guess what? They just used us to get money so they can travel here in manila because again, they have a boyfriend waiting for them here! 3rd is Maria, i really dont want to accept her first because at the interview she keeps on talking and txtng on her phone but i really have no choice and guess what? Thats what she did the whole month! I am still the one cooking and cleaning and taking care of my son and all she did was txt and call and no thats not an over reaction! There was this one time, i am cooking and i told her that she can fry because i will nurse my baby and will continue after and she answered me with “ang utak mo ate ikaw na nagluluto ipapasa mo pa saakin” wow just wow! Sooo yeah so much for the bad part and lastly ate rose, oh my heaven! I think ive found the perfect one! I almost thought! But she talked to me and told me that she would only stay for a month since her original employer is out of work and have no budget to pay her so i still said yes because she is great! But but but but! Her original employer learned that i ate rose is working for me and afraid i will pirate ate rose and decided to not make her come to me even for a month and said that she will work things out on how to pay her whiiicchh made me sad. Hehe! Almost!

anyway, what do i do at home? I do everything besides washing clothes which is a looot of help!

Up to this date im still looking for a house help… Have you found yours? Let me know your story!

xoxo,

twitchy mommy ❤️

My Breastfeeding Journey and Struggles

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Breastfeeding for me is the most natural way to feed your child, comfort them and most specially it is the cheapest! but I don’t mean that formula feeding is not good, again this is just my opinion and  I have also read that “Breastfeeding stimulates the release of the hormone oxytocin in the mother’s body it is now well established that oxytocin, as well as stimulating uterine contractions and milk ejection, promotes the development of maternal behavior and also bonding between mother and offspring”. (http://www.notmilk.com/101.html) and it is true! whenever my little one feels uncomfortable, hurt , sick or sad the only way to pacify him is to nurse him. people call it (comfort feeding) and it is effective i feel like nursing is always actively saying that “mommy is here for you”, “it’s okay” and ” I love you ” so i believe it’s wonderful, and I also consider nursing as our bonding time, but people have different cases and situations to deal with and right now breastfeeding has become so controversial like it’s also a big deal on how you do it, but that is their right and everybody is entitled with their own opinion!

My breastfeeding journey has not been very easy, The first week of nursing my little one was painful beyond expectation, the excruciating pain from cracking nipples, letting down and engorgement is the real deal i have thoughts of giving up but i did not falter, i still continued my breastfeeding journey even if it’s challenging and luckily after  weeks of painful breast and nipples i got over it and nursing became a breeze.. Or so i thought, came his 3rd month and i have over supply, he does not want to nurse when he was not asleep maybe because he gets irritated by splashing milk and he also cant keep up with the overflowing milk, he cries, whines, yell and fight even with the sight of my boob, his weight gain slowed down, i got worried, cried a lot, l felt rejected, stressed out and sad (actually) this is one of the main reasons why my anxiety did broke out. Anyway, even with the worsening anxiety ( excessive worry ) i never gave up, i fought hard to continue breastfeeding my little one because i know and i believe this is the best for him, and now we are running 10 months breastfeeding and I am proud of my journey, I feel like my stubbornness and my not quitting attitude helped me continue nursing up to this time, and i will never stop nursing him as long as i capable to do so and of course if my little one still wants to.

So what i want you to know is.

1. You are NOT a BAD mom if you do not breastfeed.
2. Consider breastfeeding first before you try formula.
3. Try your best before you say you cant do it.
4. You can do it mommy!
5. Enjoy your journey!

Xoxo,

Twitchy Mommy ♥

Oh! My Venus Korean Drama Short Review

Verdict : 4/5

This series has a “good vibes” feel and can make your mood better after watching, the chemistry between So Ji Sub and Shin Min Ah is so good that you cant imagine them being with other screen partner!

It can really make you watch the series for the whole day and finish it, i believe that the actors portrayed their characters effectively so you can feel their emotion very well.

I really likes how So Ji Sub ( who doesnt like so ji sub? ) gives his character so much justice while Shin Min Ah makes it believable that there really is a struggle on how she is living with her life, though  the story line is not that heavy it still is a great series to watch. I still believe that this series should be the RomCom of the year!

xoxo,

Twitchy Mommy ♥

 

Anxiety and Motherhood.

 

Year 2015 is one of the most challenging yet the most fulfilling part of my 26 years of existence.

how you ask? well i have an OCD as long as i can remember, from the most ridiculous to the most annoying i must say like there will be times that i cant relax just because the place i’m in has a lot of cabinets that is not shut properly, the picture frame is a little bit on the left side well almost anything that is not in order, another is I always list and say out loud what i have to do, for example is when i go off from work what should i do at home? i would list it down in this order and say it verbally. it’s hard!

1. Rest for 15mins
2. Take a shower
3. Eat
4. Read Manga
5. Do this
6. Do that
7. and so on..

My husband then boyfriend used to tease me and tell me to just relax but i cant i will worry my brains out if not.

Then comes pregnancy. Pregnancy was a bliss! i was blooming! much more blooming than when i am not pregnant, anxiety was nowhere to be found i was so positive i almost forgot about it, even after giving birth to the light of my life. my son. i was okay! i thought i am anxiety free. but oh hell i was wrong.

3 months postpartum i felt like i am very sick, i googled symptoms, saw a sick person from a social media site and right then i had a panic attack, i thought i was going to die, thought i have a terminal illness, you name it, i have thought of it, i cant breath i feel miserable, i thought it was the end for me,  i cried a lot because of fear that i am done for that i am going nuts because i am so scared and worry races through me,  so i googled again the symptoms of PPD but it still did not match me. i am not sad, i’m not depressed, in fact i am perfectly happy with whats happening in my life, so why this? and no, i’ve never had any negative thoughts for my son who is the love of my life, and so is his father, its just wonderful how your heart can love two persons as much as your self. hehe! well back to the topic, i was just so scared that i am sick and i will not be able to take care of him greatly and that i am a bad mother for having this lots of worries for him and myself, i worry about him getting sick,i getting sick, him getting not enough milk, anything! those irrational thoughts are fighting in my mind,  i also thought that my husband will leave me after seeing me so hopeless but he did not, he showed me his unrelenting support and love and so is my family that why i decided to get help and learned about Postpartum Anxiety.

I am now better, the road for the better is not easy, i had a lot of trips to the ER because of panic attacks and weird symptoms/pains but i am okay any test i had was okay, so yeah my body is a healthy heebeejeebee, i thought i was never going back to the old me but i did!  though i still have my irrational worries and weird symptoms, i am still better, i am normally living, i just think of it as a challenge cause i thought it was the end of me but its not, its all about never ending hope for the better and a realistic view in life. if you are like me, do not be afraid, you are normal postpartum anxiety is normal you are not crazy! this is just our hormones getting wild and trust me, you will get there and remember that there will be bad days and there will be good days but do not let it fool you that you have a bad life, one bad day, week, month or even year does not mean it is the end for you, use it to lift your self up and never forget to pray. God will always help you no matter how deep of a worry you are in, and find a person who will never get tired listening to you. it helps! i am beyond grateful for what my husband and my family has done and is doing for me most specially to my wonderful Little W who gives the sweetest smile in the world that gives me the strength i need to go on.

now you ask

Do i still get worried? Yes. Do i still have panic attacks? of course. Do i still have irrational worries? Absolutely. I struggle at times but it will never knock me down, yes getting better is a process and i am far better than where i was 5 months ago, so you will too!